it finally hit above 40 today here in shitty colorado. ha bikini weather.
my dad is talking about how he wants to give (as in like donations) and how he wants to makes what he makes but not spend as much as he does….um our family is barely supported by what he spends now. UGH DAD!!! You don’t get it!!!
I was waiting for my jeans to dry, but now…they are dry and I really should go out and look for a job but god dammit I’m so fucking scared and I don’t even know why. Okay wait. I know why. I have horrible confidence issues…but who doesn’t right? I feel like I’m ready but not ready at the same time. I want to wait for my mom to get home so she can take me but ugh I should be able to do this by myself. UGHHHHHH I even started giving myself those little pep talks like “why wouldn’t they want you?”, “The guy you know is slacker got a job, of course you can”, and “You can do this” but you know they really just don’t give me any hope. so yes there is my rant of all my insecurities and fears about getting a job. You may now judge.
Does anyone else have that one person that always is trying to prove you wrong and is just to stubborn to back down, and of course you the same. So neither of you win. but in the end you are just questioning their motives….
I start school in two days. This is a crime.
that terrifying moment when you start finding out people from school have found tumblr
when people tell me that my house looks so small from the outside…but when you are in it, it’s actually kind of big. I just sit there and look at them like, sooo am i supposed to take that as a compliment orrrrr???
our house puts up with so much of our shit. i have a feeling one day it’s gonna get fed up and murder us all in our sleep…
i don’t get how fighting between my parents works like one second they are perfectly fine and then BAM they are at each other’s throats, cussing, stomping around, yelling……like……WHAT?
I don’t get it.
my sister was just in deep shit like 2 two minutes ago and now shes getting to go to the movies with her friend. WTF i would have had to cancel any plans i had for like the next week.
The car ride home.
When I finally got home.
When I’m looking through our pictures.
When he calls.
When we hang up.
sneaking boyfriend in the house > being a responsible child